I once was the queen of different hair colors, red, black, orange, blue, purple..you name it, so much that a distinct memory of mine comes from a little place called the "Yum Yum Tree" in Brighton, MI. I was sitting with two girl friends, all in 8 or 9th grade and a women said to me "You change your hair color more than I change my underwear" and I thought it was amusing at the time. "Yes" I thought "I crave change". Many years passed and the hair colors evened out, but I changed my styles and of course, my dream city/country/state/home/husband characteristics just like any teenage girl. As time passed I soon discovered that the perfect job for me was a traveling occupational therapist job- serving others with little commitment about 3 months to an establishment and new places to live and see...Then I met my partner and the idea of moving around all the time soon faded to dreams of building a community, chicken coops, vegetable beds for CSA's, month long vacations to other countries, puppies, family... and my need for change was well, changing : )
I soon felt the urges again and impulsive thoughts led me to almost accept offers away from the things I started with my partner. Until, I realized what I needed to change were things inside of me that no one ever challenged...such as my constant need to move or go to school or save more money, etc., and I saw that I needed to change the way I view what will "make me happy" and understand that I am happy being who I am and living my dreams out, and happy making a difference. So I cut my dreadlocks off of 8 years, quit my job and accepted an offer for an OT job moving around to different districts in an isolated farm land with a chicken coop and barn...along with my puppy and my man hand in hand. Sounds like a lot of change right? Yes but I know I can change things about myself inside and out, without the need to always run away or, the flip side, suppressing my love of change and purge. I found a way to change it up by changing my environment to a stable place with more adventures on a daily basis instead of every 3 months. I am rocking a new hair style and loving my little family. I am embracing these changes and moving forward as a step in the direction of my dreams.
Change is not a "bad" thing, change is what helps us grow. Am I scared? Yes, a little nervous for new responsibilities, but if we never move out of our comfort zone we will never move forward and learn in order to teach more people. May our dreams always be the benefit all beings, as we are all sharing the same journey just different ways to look at it. May you embrace the changes in your life, in your practice and in your direction and feel strong and noble. Bless your journey.
I soon felt the urges again and impulsive thoughts led me to almost accept offers away from the things I started with my partner. Until, I realized what I needed to change were things inside of me that no one ever challenged...such as my constant need to move or go to school or save more money, etc., and I saw that I needed to change the way I view what will "make me happy" and understand that I am happy being who I am and living my dreams out, and happy making a difference. So I cut my dreadlocks off of 8 years, quit my job and accepted an offer for an OT job moving around to different districts in an isolated farm land with a chicken coop and barn...along with my puppy and my man hand in hand. Sounds like a lot of change right? Yes but I know I can change things about myself inside and out, without the need to always run away or, the flip side, suppressing my love of change and purge. I found a way to change it up by changing my environment to a stable place with more adventures on a daily basis instead of every 3 months. I am rocking a new hair style and loving my little family. I am embracing these changes and moving forward as a step in the direction of my dreams.
Change is not a "bad" thing, change is what helps us grow. Am I scared? Yes, a little nervous for new responsibilities, but if we never move out of our comfort zone we will never move forward and learn in order to teach more people. May our dreams always be the benefit all beings, as we are all sharing the same journey just different ways to look at it. May you embrace the changes in your life, in your practice and in your direction and feel strong and noble. Bless your journey.